I have been blessed to experience many things. Free-will is the greatest gift, and challenge, of this thing we call life. I have studied many great teachings, and met some really amazing people in my life. Prema Baba Swamiji (Donald Schnell) was one of these. He shared his Future Self Training with me and there was a message, among very many, that stood out for me.

That is the power of CHOICE. My life has been a series of choices, some conscious, some motivated by what seems to be an outside source. Now, I am sure that it was only the love, as we call it, that was emanating from me that pushed me to not conform. Below are the words that I expressed, as the result of many life experiences that placed me in a very challenged position - but ultimately catapulted me to create the first, real, meaningful thing of my life. Prior to this I believe I was simply in training, and most often "running in someone else's hamster wheel" - in other words, working a job to survive and take care of my family.

Here is an excerpt from my first book "I Am Sharing: Thoughts, Experiences and Learning About Love and Life" describing my decision to "make a difference", not limited by my fears, perceived obstacles or any other thing that might get in my way. There was a series of powerful experiences that I believe led me to do this and I will share these at the bottom of this page, as time permits.

The Decision

In the last few months I have had the great fortune to come in contact with some very wise and powerful beings. Here is a message I shared with one of them when he alluded to the fact that I had a very strong motivation to make the world a better place for my kids, and all children. I have made the statement for years that I believed our future is dependent on the children, however, I believe it is my job (realized much more clearly in the last year) to try to leave them with some tools to work with based on my time here on Gaia. In my work I refer to this concept as building a bridge from the current socio-economic paradigms of the existing world, to the world that I believe Spirit is ushering in in the near future, and this relates to humanity ascension associated with 2012.

Here is the message that I sent to my friend.

Dear Don, (not his real name)
How did you know, about my kids and my desire to change the world? Here is a quote from my father's memorial/tribute:

About 1 ½ year ago I found myself getting tremendously sad at the thought of  y children facing the “age of enlightenment” – when the reality of the problems of the world start pressing down on them. I found myself slipping into that dreaded state of desperate resignation – what could I possibly do to make it better?- the problems seem insurmountable. . . . but then a thought came to me about what I could do about it. What I realized is that I can try to change the world. I don’t care if people think it’s grandiose or pompous to think or believe this. Either way it will be better. . . if I make a difference, great!

If I don’t, at least I died trying. I think both Mom and Dad did that in their lives. Then on 10/1/07 I wrote this in my journal - I remember where I was when these thoughts came to me:

Realized that the reason things haven't changed in the world is that no one has just simply made the decision to change them in a big way (e.g. Mother Theresa, Norman Borlaug, Mahatma Ghandi, MLK).

- I Am making that decision and working towards a common sense set of solutions.
- We have the tools and the necessary resources, we just need to "make it happen"! (my cousin Keith coined this term in the
- God Help Me?!
- I can do this. The reason I have the desire is because this is what I am supposed to do - I see this vision with clarity because the
   time has come to solve problems (today I would say seize the opportunity).
- We will draw the necessary resources to get this done. Don't focus on what might go wrong, only focus on success. We are
   proceeding in a CERTAIN way.
The time has come.

Some appropriate quotes from Law of Success by Paramahansa Yogananda:
“And your work can only be called a “success” when in some way it benefits your fellowman” (p.6).
“Tune yourself with the creative power of Spirit. You will be in contact with the Infinite Intelligence that is able to guide you and solve all problems. Power from the dynamic Source of your being will flow uninterruptedly so that you will be able to perform in any sphere of activity.

You should sit in silence before deciding about any important matter, asking the Father for His blessings. Then behind your power is God’s power; behind your mind, His mind, behind your will, His will. When God is working with you, you cannot fail; every faculty you possess will increase in power. When you do your work with the thought of serving God, you receive his blessings. . . .So long as you work to please God, all cosmic forces will harmoniously assist you (p. 34).